Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Maternity Ward

Erin got transferred to the maternity ward a few hours ago. I'm writing this from her room.

My mom is here.

Lauren is at her friend Hannah's for a sleep over.

Erin will recover here for the next few days. Sounds like the earliest she will get out of the hospital this Friday.

We have gotten to spend a lot of time saying good bye to our son. Its incredibly heart breaking, but definitely something we wanted to do.

Thank you all for all your well wishes - they really really help. It is good to know that your friends share your pain and truly care.

The nurses gave us some good booklets to read. Its sad, but true. I think that the booklets will help us find the miracle in this some day. A sample excerpt:

Our joys will be greater; Our love will be deeper; Our lives will be fuller; Because we shared your moment

Its hard to see getting over this. I don't think we really ever will. And I think thats is eventually going to be ok. But right now its awful. Especially for Erin.

We really are glad that we tried our best to make this work. Erin was the best patient imaginable. We took risks, but were not reckless. We'll never wonder what could have been. For us, that is going to help a lot.


  1. We love you guys. We are thinking of you and praying for you.

    Mark Pierce

  2. Our thoughts and prayers are with you, Erin and Lauren during this hard time.
    Dan & Lisa Bozich

  3. Please accept our heartfelt condolences on your loss. We are so sorry to have heard the news. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all during this time.
    The Wahlins

  4. We are so glad Nana Betty is there, too. What a tough day...tough journey. Squeezing you all and holding you tight. xoxo NB&H

  5. You are in our hearts and prayers through this difficult time. We send you strength to get you through each day. Ed, Julia, Andrew and Ryan

  6. We have been thinking about you all day. You are in our prayers.
    xoxo, the schmicks

  7. Erin and Mike,
    We are so sad to hear about your loss today. We are thinking of you and you will be in our prayers.
    Julie and Kelly Blodgett

  8. Mike: you are an inspiration to all of us. You honor your family with your written words and thoughtful approach to life. I cannot begin to imagine your loss; I am here for you as you begin to heal. LWP

  9. Erin and Mike, we're so sorry to hear about the loss of your baby boy. From your words here, it is so clear how much he was loved. You're in my thoughts, and I wish you love and strength as you go through this time. - Kinnari & Chris Cowell-Shah

  10. Erin and Mike, we are thinking about you constantly and are sending our love. -- Jen & John

  11. Also, I know it is too early to be thinking of this sort of thing, but if it would help at all, we would love to spend time with Lauren, either playdates after school or in the evenings. I know Soren would be overjoyed to be with his beloved Lauren, and it might give you both a chance to have some quiet time with each other. We're here for you, in any way we can. - Kinnari

  12. All three of you are brave for the effort and love you put forth. You're in our thoughts. Don't hesitate to ask if there is anything we can do.

    D,E, & L

  13. Wish there was something we could do to ease your pain. Our thoughts are with you all. Extra hugs and loves are at the ready for Lauren while she's with me at school!

  14. Your family is in my thoughts every day.
    Sarah Lovett

  15. We are thinking of you all during this difficult time. Our prayers are with you.
    Sara and Matt Stewart

  16. Erin and Mike,

    Jack and I are so sorry for your pain and loss; you all have been in our thoughts for weeks and will continue to be in our prayers. We think the world of all of you...Christy

  17. Erin & Mike,
    We keep you in our hearts and in our prayers during this painful and difficult time. Your strength and courage are an inspiration. We are thinking of you and sending much love. Michelle & Warren

  18. We are so sorry to hear that things did not turn out better. It is a good reminder to always be thankful for what we have. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
    John and Amy Convery

  19. "sometimes miracles arrive so tiny that we cannot feel the weight of them-
    and yet we are still changed, and we are blessed none the less…"

    My prayers are with you. Lindsey Geist

  20. Are prayers are with you at this time. We are so sorry for your loss.- the Gripekovens

  21. I am so heartbroken for you guys. You are in my prayers for comfort and peace and to make it through this stronger.
    Marisa Grim