Erin got transferred to the maternity ward a few hours ago. I'm writing this from her room.
My mom is here.
Lauren is at her friend Hannah's for a sleep over.
Erin will recover here for the next few days. Sounds like the earliest she will get out of the hospital this Friday.
We have gotten to spend a lot of time saying good bye to our son. Its incredibly heart breaking, but definitely something we wanted to do.
Thank you all for all your well wishes - they really really help. It is good to know that your friends share your pain and truly care.
The nurses gave us some good booklets to read. Its sad, but true. I think that the booklets will help us find the miracle in this some day. A sample excerpt:
Our joys will be greater; Our love will be deeper; Our lives will be fuller; Because we shared your moment
Its hard to see getting over this. I don't think we really ever will. And I think thats is eventually going to be ok. But right now its awful. Especially for Erin.
We really are glad that we tried our best to make this work. Erin was the best patient imaginable. We took risks, but were not reckless. We'll never wonder what could have been. For us, that is going to help a lot.